Monday, March 28, 2011

Before and After

Twelve weeks ago I paid $20 and entered the Biggest Blogging Loser weight loss competition.  Originally I thought the final pot would be about $700.  It turned out to be over $1500 for first place and over $600 for second place.

After the first couple of weeks I knew there was no chance I would be the overall winner nor would I take second place.  And while that was disappointing, watching the numbers steadily go down on the scale kept me sending in those weekly weigh in photos.

In those 12 weeks I lost a total of 16.8 pounds and I didn't take any pills or go on Atkins or eat only raw carrots.  I watched what I ate (courtesy of Weight Watchers) and I worked out 3 to 4 days per week.  And it felt awesome.

When I started at the gym I couldn't run more than 6 minutes without having to stop (I lied and told Morgan that I ran for 11 minutes.  Total fabrication.)  This weekend I ran for 77 minutes and 7 miles.  And it felt awesome.

When I started watching what I ate I couldn't tell you how much pasta should have been on my plate versus how much chicken or vegetables. I learned and it felt awesome.  When I started I felt hungry all the time.  Like, all.  the.  time.  I would eat 10 almonds or a string cheese and just wait for the hunger pains to return.  Now, I'm not hungry all the time.  I can eat a meal, then eat a snack and feel satisfied.

I cut out a lot of sweets and a LOT of beer but I was able to eat and drink both on occasion so I never felt deprived.  I even spent two weekends away from home eating and drinking merrily and came home to find I had still lost weight.  And that felt awesome.

I was surprised to learn that I am an emotional eater.  When I was stressed or bored I would head to the kitchen.  That was a pretty easy habit to break once I recognized it but it surprised me nonetheless.  The hardest habit to break, by far, was my naptime munchie-fest.  Every day, as soon as I put the kids to bed, I would hit the kitchen and eat whatever sweet or salty treat I could find.  Sometimes I would just eat more lunch.  Even still, as soon as I leave our hallway I'm tempted to check out the contents of our cabinets.  I found that eating (slowly savoring is more like it) 3 dried apricots usually got me over the worst of the cravings.

I also learned that when I fell off the wagon so-to-speak, it was SO hard to get back on.  Almost like starting over but with slightly less motivation because I had already lost a fair amount of the weight I wanted to take off.

Finally, I learned something really important about myself.  I learned that I can be fit and healthy and feel good.  And not because of the size of my ass, or arms or thighs.  I learned that by losing this weight I feel more confident, not because I am physically smaller, but because I feel a true sense of accomplishment in having started something and succeeded.  I take pride in how I look because I worked HARD to get to this point.  And THAT feels awesome.

                 BEFORE                                                                        AFTER
January 1st, 2011
March 28th, 2011

I still have about 6 pounds to go until I reach my ideal weight but I feel so pleased with where I am today.  My happy weight.  Who knew that I would feel better about myself at almost 32 than I ever did at almost 22?


Jenn Sanders said...

Great job lady!!!! You always look great. Good for you for feeling good about yourself. As you should!!

Jennie said...

You brought tears to my eyes, Erin. Thank YOU.

Sarah said...

That is awesome and inspiring! Good for you, you look amazing! I think you look pretty amazing in the "before" photo too but isn't it wonderful the transformation in ones attitude when they feel accomplished?

Sonya said...

Great job. That's amazing. Thank you for sharing this, it is very inspiring. You look great as always!